To all my watchers, new and old, I thank you for taking care of me these past few years. Here's to many more to come!

Well, it's hard to believe, but time really does fly by. Guess what folks? This saturday (July 25) is my five year anniversary for my heart transplant. Five Years!

That's flippin' amazing if you ask me. I'm not saying that in a cocky way either. I'm being serious. I honestly am amazed at what technology can do nowadays.

Five years ago, I was told I had a few months to a year left to live. It's pretty harsh telling a fifteen year old that, let me tell you. At the time, I was day dreaming with my friends about what to do over summer vacation and thinking (already) about what to wear to prom and discussing guys. You know, the usual.

After they told me that, I was back to square one again. It was grade school all over again. I went back to worrying more about my health than my grades. It showed, obviously. I was worried about making it to the next school year.

But, yeah, I mean, look at me now? *laughs* I haven't done a whole lot for myself, but I'm still here, alive and well.

In the next year or so, I could possibly be weened from one of my medicines, which is pretty damn kickass if you ask me. I never imagined being where I am today, let me tell ya. It feels pretty damn awesome when this time of the year rolls around.

It makes me realize that I am.....Here. It's the only word to describe the feeling. I am here and I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon.

FIRST THINGS FIRST I'M SO SORRY FOR ALL THE MASSIVE SPAMMAGE IN YOUR INBOX!

Haha...I totally went crazy and caught up with my deviations. I'm especially sorry to *tramirez89 for the multiple favorites on your part... *bows head*


Anyways, I literally went crazy. I pulled up deviantart and saw my messages and about flipped. I was up to 3,854 deviations and close to 1,250 messages (mostly journals). So, it was then I realized, I gotta check those things.

And I did~ I'm completely caught up with my deviations. I just have to go through and delete my messages now.

Normally, I'm the nice (and stupid?) person that will go and thank every single person for favoriting whatever it was that they added to their favorites. However, I'm well over 100 "Activity Messages" so I think I'm just going to delete them and start over.






I'm sorry for not being around much anymore. I'm sure I'm not entirely missed. But, I'll be lurking the next few days and if I can bring myself to do it, I have photos to post on here. Why?

Well, I went to Texas dammit! It was so hot down there, but I had such an amazing time! I went with ~Kage-Ichihashi and her family. We were in Dallas for a week. It was...Big. God, I'm from such a tiny, backwoods place. The city life spooks me. I couldn't live there...ever. Not for me, hun.

I'll stick to my trees and dirt, kay? Anyways, we came home last night (July 4) and I crashed and slept a decent amount. Which surprised me, really. My sleeping and eating habits still aren't super awesome.

Um...That's all I've got right now. I'll sort out my thoughts and get back to you all, kay? I just thought I'd let you know I'm still alive and kicking.

WHOA! That reminds me! I totally pulled a "dumbass of the century" move today! T-T I "tried" to overdose myself on insulin. Not intentionally, but yeah. I went to take my shot and realized I grabbed the wrong bottle....After I had already taken it.

I was looking at the bottle and couldn't figure out what was wrong with it and then suddenly my head started swimming and my knees went weak. I dropped the bottle and managed to say "I need sugar, fast." before my throat sorta closed up. It was some seriously scary stuff! I managed to grab a bottle of apple juice out of the fridge and down it in like three seconds. My mom was sorta..shocked, I think. She didn't know what to do. I stayed pretty calm about it, but it was still a pretty scary ordeal.

I never want that to happen again~ T-T

So, how many of you actually noticed I've been missing....For over two months now?

I've, obviously, been on a sort of Hiatus. It wasn't intentional at first, but it slowly blossomed into becoming just that.

It isn't that I've been busy or that I just don't have the time anymore. It's the opposite really. I have time to get on here and check my messages, the few that I receive, that is. I also have time to write or take photographs to my heart's content.

I just don't.

I guess you could say I haven't had the motivation to do it recently. It's been like this for the past few months. I haven't been inspired to write or do anything creative for quite some time.

I didn't really realize the real reasoning behind it until I confronted myself and declared what you could call an "Inner Intervention." I sat down and tried to figure out what was happening with me.

Only one answer surfaced. It isn't uncommon for someone such as me. My doctors secretly expected it and also, it can be common amongst diabetics. Depression.

Irrational mood swings that cause me to lash out and hurt people with my unkind words and also make me wallow in my own guilt afterwards. My appetite, or lack thereof, is worse than normal and so is my insomnia.

Much more obvious factors led me to this conclusion. I don't think it is the serious "Clinical Depression" that most people worry about, but it is form of it at least.

No, I'm not going to the extreme and developing a case of "Emo." Nothing of that sort. I'm dealing with it the best I can and I hope that soon I can pull myself out of this stupor and get back to being my true self.

Oh, how I've missed writing.

I miss everyone here, as well. I have a lot to catch up on, so be warned. If you suddenly see my name flooding your inbox, I'm truly sorry! Just to give you an example of what I have in store, take a gander at this:

2,538 Deviations, 302 Messages

And that is after checking a few messages and deviations! T-T

So, yes, I'm writing to let you know I'm still alive and well. I'm just trying to sort things out and get through this ordeal the best and easiest way that I can possibly manage.

I hope everyone is doing well and please keep up all the fantastic work! I want to see my inbox full of beautiful pieces for me to indulge in when I return!

Love you guys~

I was reading the newspaper today at work and came across an article called, "We Should All Be West Virginia Friends." It caught my interest, needless to say, so I gave it a read. It talked about a woman who lived in WV all her life and, to this day, still hasn't found a better, more beautiful, place to live. It made me smile. She also had attached something called "Friends vs West Virginia Friends." I read it and couldn't help but laugh and agree.

Everything stated is absolutely true. Now, you can probably find this for absolutely any state listed or something, but I'm posting it as it was in the article.

For those of you who know me personally, you will agree that most of these things listed are absolutely true about me and for yourselves as well. Anyone can be a "West Virginia Friend" no matter where you were born and raised or currently call home.

Where I live may be boring sometimes, but I have to say I absolutely love it. It's...Green. Oh, so, green. My closest neighbor is through an acre of trees and barely any cars pass by.

I don't know if I could ever get used to a city life. I am proud to be a backwoods country girl who plays in mud and breaks my nails.

Anyways, Love ya, guys! Hope you enjoy this.